An Ice Cream Called Life

An ice cream called life…

This ice cream for which I screamed

Is melting away too fast!

Oh god! I am on my way,

To my sweet home.

I want to reach there and eat it

Relish the taste with my loved ones..

My last destination is nearing.

But at a slower rate than this ice cream

Is melting and losing itself.

Somebody tell it to wait!

With it melts my last desire…

And the lake of sabotaged dreams so formed

Doesn’t even reflect my image…

With it I lose my sense of taste,

The idea of relinquishing anything

Henceforth seems redundant!

All the time I had saved it,

So that once on earth,

When I will have nothing to do,

No dream to chase,

No goal to reach,

No road to walk,

Nothing at all,

Will I go home peacefully,

And enjoy it with my loved ones!

But now I realize

How fool I was to think that time

Will gift me such a day of love!

Such days never come and even if they do

Its too late

Because the ice cream has already melted!

So, on your journey of this world,

At each and every moment,

Strawberry, vanilla, chocolate,

Whatever flavors it has,

Try to love this ice cream called life!

There's a place in my heart...

There's a place in my heart,
and you know it longs for you.
There's a place in my heart,
and you know it waits for you.
Wandering through the woods, 
or sitting by the riverside,
Whenever I walk alone,
it is this place that haunts me!
Even for a second it was hard
for me to part
my ways from you,
but now,
hours and days and months have passed
and I havent even seen you!
I know I am impatient,
but that is what love is!
and that is what love teaches you!
Looking from my window side,
whenever I gaze at the horizon
I can see us walking together,
just like it was before.....
Talking,laughing and feeling together...
just like it was before....
But as they say,
"the horizons are imaginary"
It soon clears my eyes!
I am nomore walking with you!
I am sitting here,
by this lonely windowside!
On these sunny afternoons
I feel the sun all the more,
because you  are not there
to shade me now!
In that dark room ,
in a corner I am ,
Where my shadow (you) is missing!

When People Change...

When you change directions , you know you are heading towards another phase of your life where a gift might be waiting for you.
When weather changes, you know that whatever season might be coming ,someday sitting in your bed,too lazy to get up, you will love it!
However when people change, Ah! they do!, Right on your face ,they say things that maybe the last things you expect on earth and they seem to drift away from your perceptions! All of a sudden they don't fit in their mold..! And that's when your world actually starts drifting away from you.. As if you lose a part of you.
When people change for a long time it is difficult to realize what just happened. Their indifference comes as a big unbelievable jolt to your shattered heart because that is where they live and then you can hear them taking away their huge trunks ,dragging all their baggage of love..the noise of those wheels of the suitcases annoyingly echoing in your ears as they quietly move away from your life.You shout ,you cry ,sometimes you may even beg them not to leave but your shrieks are unheard because they are no more themselves ..They have changed!
Your love starts slipping from your hands .Your life starts melting away.It does not end ! It only melts into an ocean of fading emotions! The extinguishing hearth of your desire to stay with them together ,to love them and be  loved hurts you all the more.Although the flames are low,it is no less than slow poisoning ..it will burn forever until some part in the deeper recesses of your mind dies with it and you no more feel the pain.

I long to be with you mom....

Everytime a hand strokes my hair,
even the gentlest touch by mistake,
chokes my throat so badly...
It reminds me of you mom...
Whenever you entered my room,
my gates to happiness opened !
and now,every knock at my door,
tears my stupid heart....
and only in that endless wait,
it wishes to spring apart !

Not a ray of sunshine I needed
when you were there with me..

Your face was my sun
Your smile made my day
but now the loudest laughter, 
so quickly fades away.
The bells of Christmas rang ,
when your footsteps reached my ears,
How I used to run to you
escaping all my fear !
Not an ocean now quenches my thirst,
How much I want to be with you !
If at all a drop of tear,
dared to roll down my cheeks.
How much did you panicked all
my tear fled your glee!
Early morning for dozy eyes,
unconsciously my feet found way to your room,
and you hugged me and cuddled me,
I felt as secure as in your womb!
Your hands when they touched my face,
extracted all my tension and pain,
and out of the dark terrain,
I felt so much new again.
I long to be with you mom...
Right now this moment...
Although we are sitting miles apart,
I can feel your breath... 

Shattered are the pillars

Shattered are the pillars, on which I now stand,

A fool I was to feel they can never be demolished!

Today off late but still early, at least I know

That constancy is so unnatural!

Walking in the garden of my memories,

Pampering my nostalgia,

I was so calmly yet redundantly,

Believing my own world to be true

Suddenly   I could smell something strange,

Something burning!  Something soft ablaze!

Like a deer I was hunting the path of the odour

Perplexed I was, unaware of the origin of the flames,

My eyes filled with smoke, my breath sinking.

And alas!  Finally I could see it

My soul reduced to a heap of ashes!

Miserable!  My legs were shaking,

I could not stand anymore, at all

I fell down on my knees..

 What I saw was unbelievable,

Me dying in front of my own eyes,

All strength that I had amalgamated,

All courage that I had mustered all these years,

All life that I had annealed in my breath,

All music my heart had composed,

Everything along with my soul and me was dying.

Who had killed me?

 Was it the trust that an acquaintance broke?

Or the love that I lost as easily I had got?

Or the harsh words of a friend,

Those made me tremble terribly?

Or a false belief that everything stays as it is.

My urge to sustain in the past,

The shadows that I lived in

And my love for the lost,

Yes! All this had assassinated me!

Ah! My soul reduced to a heap of ashes!