I am sorry.

I shout

I cry

I throw things away

I break them away

And even hearts

I do not hear

I do not want to

I am rigid

I am angry

I am a big pessimist

I’ve hurt people

I have spoiled  relations

I sulk

But out of the pillow

When I take out my buried face

In my dead red eyes

If you ever see

If you ever want to see

Is pure love for you.

When I shouted

I wanted you to be soft

When I said I hate you

I wanted you to love me instead

At all times

I said I don’t want to listen anything

I wanted you to understand me first

At all times

I told you not to talk to me

I wanted you to hug  me tightly.

Leave me alone

Had always meant don’t let go of me!

Ever

Every time I said u ignore me

I needed you the most

I am sorry

I cannot say everything

My heart sinks when I write this

My hands shake

But to all those I have hurt

I want to say sorry

I am inexpressive.

I am not perfect.

But I love you.

And I cannot afford to lose you.