My peace of mind !

It was here

Until few days

Where is it now?

My peace of mind.

I search for it.

In cupboards,

Behind doors,

If it is playing hide and seek.

I search for it.

On the pillows

In case it poured out with the tears.

Under the pillow

Where my secret diaries lie.

Yet in vain, I search.

I uncover the bed covers

If it has slept with my sleep

I might find it there.

In the wind that stealthily enters the sides of window panes,

And peeps into my room in the middle of the night,

When the world sleeps

And I am awake still searching,

Makes me skeptical

It might have eloped with the blue winds!

Finding that I may not prove to be a good caretaker.

The wind chime tries it best to warn me whenever this breeze arrives

But I too engaged

Fail to decipher the music.

Yes.music.

What if it lies with Beethoven

Composing new melodies?

I rummaged around all CD’s that carried

My childhood beats

My first love songs

But It isn’t there too.

I followed the butterfly.

Out of the garden it flew,

In the dreary roads

Lined by naked trees

With leaves at their feet

I search there ebony barks

But they are as dry as refusals!

It is not there.

What if it lay dumped with my old bicycle

So I hunt like a kabbadiwala!

Searching for some junk,

In the backyard

Maybe it too has dusted away its soul

Like all old pieces there.

Where is my peace of mind!

To my old library I rush.

Books might have intrigued it to run

Away to serene and naïve lands

From my bedtime novels!

A Silverfish  looking at my desperateness

Quietly whispers to me

It isn’t here, that what you are searching for!

I still search for it.

In Endless wait.

With Hollow eyes.

And Empty heart!